After the Columbine school massacre – the 1999 shooting that left more than a dozen students dead in their Colorado high school – we heard nothing from the parents of the shooters. Neither the Klebod nor Harris families wanted to speak about what their sons had done. Now, all these years later, the mother of Dylan Klebold, Susan Klebold, has written an essay for Oprah’s O Magazine.
"For the rest of my life, I will be haunted by the horror and anguish Dylan caused," she writes. "I cannot look at a child in a grocery store or on the street without thinking about how my son's schoolmates spent the last moments of their lives. Dylan changed everything I believed about myself, about God, about family and about love."
She writes about that fateful day: "I was getting dressed for work when I heard Dylan bound down the stairs and open the front door … I poked my head out of the bedroom. 'Dyl?' All he said was 'Bye.' … His voice had sounded sharp. I figured he was mad because he'd had to get up early to give someone a lift to class. I had no idea that I had just heard his voice for the last time."
And on realizing the signs, after the fact: "Dylan's participation in the massacre was impossible for me to accept until I began to connect it to his own death. Once I saw his journals, it was clear to me that Dylan entered the school with the intention of dying there. In order to understand what he might have been thinking, I started to learn all I could about suicide."